Friends, my departure date is swiftly arriving.
Last night, I went down the airport to pick up my friend, and after she got in, we walked past the United counter and I looked at her and said, “We’ll be here in one week sending me off!” That’s when it really started to get real… In one week, Jesse will be picking me up, I’ll be freaking out, we’ll go to the coffee shop so I can say my last goodbyes and I’ll be gone. CRAZY!
It’s been weird for me to see things differently as I am leaving. For one, I know now, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I am a control freak. I am worried about how things are going to be while I am gone. I am worried about my Youth Group kids and how they will grow or fail while I am gone. I know, in my head, that the Lord holds them, but practically I worry. I just love these kids so much and I want to see them grow and succeed and love God. But, I also know that God has called me to go to Belgium and has given my favor with the youth kids there like he has my youth kids here, so I am going in obedience, and full blown excitement. But I do worry for my students here.
High School (and Middle School) are hard. I think things may legitimately be more difficult these days than when I grew up. Or maybe just where I live now. But I feel like sin is crouching at every door, and the doors are wide open. They have so much access to so much more than we did, with all the technology and accessibility. Gossip can fly the second it’s heard, rather than giving a person a minute to think about it before they share it. You can pull up any image on your phone at any time, that’s dangerous. The need for person accountability and impulse control is higher than its ever been, and unfortunately, its a lost art.
So what do we do. What have I learned to do when my inner control freak, well, freaks out? I turn to prayer. I cannot control everything and everyone, as much as I would like to, but I can talk to God. He not only has the control, but the plan and He knows best, even when it does not make sense.
“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” Philippians 4:5-7
And you call be praying for me, that instead of Epaphras, this would be true of me.
“Epaphras [Morgan], who is one of you, a servant of Christ Jesus, greets you, always struggling on your behalf in his prayers, that you may stand mature and fully assured in all the will of God.” Col 4:12